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    <pubDate>Sun, 19 Jun 2016 06:27:11 +0200</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[How is it that my mom will dance around Kris's feelings and be so respectful and put so much thought into it yet with me there is nothing. I'm sorry did you forget that my best friend died too mom. Did you forget that I am dying inside too mom. Maybe... ]]></description>
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    <pubDate>Mon, 30 May 2016 07:39:48 +0200</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[I've come to the conclusion that I really am on my own. No matter the days that are spent surrounded by others be it family or friends, or the days I spend on my own. I am, all the time, by myself. Some people may contradict this idea by saying you're... ]]></description>
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    <pubDate>Sat, 02 Jan 2016 01:42:59 +0100</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[As I lay on my floor curled up in a ball in ready to die. I can't take this anymore. The sadness has just become who i am it seems to be all I am anymore. It envelops me and I can't get away from it. I put too much of myself in people. I love too hard... ]]></description>
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    <pubDate>Fri, 01 Jan 2016 01:40:37 +0100</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[I'm scared. I'm scared because I've already been on this planet without your exuberating soul for 154 days. I'm scared because as of tomorrow I will start my first year without you. 2016. Without my best friend. I'm scared because with January comes my... ]]></description>
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    <pubDate>Wed, 30 Dec 2015 05:29:50 +0100</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[Five months later and I've started to realize something. Through tragedy some friends grow closer and keep continuous support. Yet sadly some drift apart separate themselves from me. Leaving me lonelier than before. ]]></description>
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    <pubDate>Wed, 23 Dec 2015 06:33:05 +0100</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[There are approximately 1,013,913 words in the English language but I could never string any of them together to explain how incredible I think you are. ]]></description>
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    <link><![CDATA[https://ivxxv.over-blog.com/2015/12/i-feel-unspeakably-lonely-and-i-feel-drained-it-is-a-blank-state-of-mind-and-soul-i-cannot-describe-to-you-as-i-think-it-would-not-m]]></link>
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    <pubDate>Thu, 17 Dec 2015 17:29:20 +0100</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[“I feel unspeakably lonely. And I feel - drained. It is a blank state of mind and soul I cannot describe to you as I think it would not make any difference. Also it is a very private feeling I have - that of melting into a perpetual nervous breakdown.... ]]></description>
        <dc:creator><![CDATA[Kelsey Jackson]]></dc:creator>
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    <pubDate>Tue, 08 Dec 2015 06:19:02 +0100</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[Fuck Anna. The person I've become. Sometimes I hate myself for it. One of those times is right now. To say planes give me anxiety is an understatement. Besides when the boys flew home a couple days after that week I've been able to control it, well enough... ]]></description>
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    <link><![CDATA[https://ivxxv.over-blog.com/2015/11/time-time-is-such-a-strange-construct-it-never-used-to-confuse-me-as-much-as-it-does-nowadays-tonight-i-was-sitting-on-my-couch-and]]></link>
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    <pubDate>Sun, 22 Nov 2015 08:32:19 +0100</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[Time. Time is such a strange construct. It never used to confuse me as much as it does nowadays. Tonight I was sitting on my couch and my mom said "now that it's been a couple months" I went to correct her on how absurdly wrong she was until I realized... ]]></description>
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    <pubDate>Fri, 30 Oct 2015 00:07:42 +0100</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[You have become the idea that I can't fathom. The idea that continuously crosses my brain but yet somehow I can't grasp it. You have become the reason I can't focus, the reason I don't sleep. You have become the reason teardrops have become so familiar... ]]></description>
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    <link><![CDATA[https://ivxxv.over-blog.com/2015/10/i-guess-i-was-wrong-i-came-to-school-trying-to-be-the-everybody-friend-that-you-were-just-trying-to-live-like-you-but-i-guess-i-fail]]></link>
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    <pubDate>Tue, 27 Oct 2015 21:40:43 +0100</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[I guess I was wrong. I came to school trying to be the everybody friend that you were. Just trying to live like you. But I guess I failed. They have group messages without me. Three to be exact. I thought I could be everybody's friend. But I guess no... ]]></description>
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    <pubDate>Fri, 23 Oct 2015 08:05:45 +0200</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[I finally told someone tonight. I told them the story of you. And the story of the best and worst trip to mass. It was Brooke, from gamma. I had been helping her study then we took a food break and went to bdubbs and then I asked her "tell me about your... ]]></description>
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    <link><![CDATA[https://ivxxv.over-blog.com/2015/10/the-feeling-where-you-re-stopped-in-time-not-that-time-is-stopped-but-you-are-frozen-yet-the-whole-world-is-spinning-around-you-that]]></link>
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    <pubDate>Wed, 21 Oct 2015 20:14:04 +0200</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[The feeling where you're stopped in time. Not that time is stopped, but you are. Frozen yet the whole world is spinning around you. That's the feeling you give me. You stop my world while everyone else's is still at full speed. ]]></description>
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    <link><![CDATA[https://ivxxv.over-blog.com/2015/10/i-find-myself-questioning-a-lot-lately-how-i-will-keep-going-if-it-will-ever-be-less-painful-then-the-horrible-ache-that-constantly]]></link>
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    <pubDate>Tue, 20 Oct 2015 09:15:45 +0200</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[I find myself questioning a lot lately. How I will keep going. If it will ever be less painful then the horrible ache that constantly fills my heart. What I'm supposed to do with the gaps that will continue in my life where you were supposed to fill.... ]]></description>
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    <link><![CDATA[https://ivxxv.over-blog.com/2015/10/fuck-that-s-all-i-can-keep-saying-fuck-i-m-home-which-is-weird-it-s-just-another-place-for-me-to-remember-you-re-gone-homes-a-little]]></link>
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    <pubDate>Sat, 10 Oct 2015 04:51:36 +0200</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[Fuck. That's all I can keep saying. Fuck. I'm home, which is weird, it's just another place for me to remember you're gone, homes a little worse in some ways though since you've been here you've sat on my floor you've sat on my bed and now you never will... ]]></description>
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    <pubDate>Mon, 21 Sep 2015 07:45:37 +0200</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[I still don't know what I'm doing here. Without you. I keep finding myself just wanting to tell you something or ask you something or just talk to you. And I get so close. My forgetting that you're gone comes so close and then j remember. I just. I don't... ]]></description>
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    <pubDate>Fri, 18 Sep 2015 06:13:54 +0200</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[I still get ready for bed at night and right before I climb in I think of all the stuff I want to talk to you about. I'm like oh I can't wait to lay down and text Anna about this. But I can't. Which is so weird. And I don't like it. Like it doesn't feel... ]]></description>
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    <link><![CDATA[https://ivxxv.over-blog.com/2015/09/i-broke-down-about-you-today-it-came-by-surprise-i-was-sitting-on-the-shuttle-going-to-gamma-practice-and-i-was-mad-at-some-of-my-fr]]></link>
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    <pubDate>Wed, 16 Sep 2015 06:28:03 +0200</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[I broke down about you today. It came by surprise. I was sitting on the shuttle going to gamma practice and I was mad at some of my friends, not mad mad just in the moment like come on guys you're low key being assholes anywho I was still kind of upset... ]]></description>
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    <pubDate>Tue, 08 Sep 2015 06:46:19 +0200</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[It's weird how my emotions can completely differ. And I know how they so easily do. Days like today, I was distracted from the moment I woke up, distracted from you, and distracted onto this amazing new home I found. I finally got something j really wanted... ]]></description>
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    <pubDate>Sun, 30 Aug 2015 08:22:21 +0200</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[I'm jealous. I'm jealous of the people who have hundreds of photos with you. Of the people who have multiple videos and voicemails from you. And I'm mad at myself. I was never worried because I thought I had the rest of my life to be with you. I though... ]]></description>
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    <pubDate>Sat, 29 Aug 2015 19:42:22 +0200</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[Last night. After I finally fell asleep from pure exhaustion. I dreamt of you. For hours upon hours it seemed. It felt as if you occupied all of my sleep. This time though was different than the last. You weren't alive in this dream, but still I saw you.... ]]></description>
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    <pubDate>Sat, 29 Aug 2015 09:49:44 +0200</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[Here I am. One month later. Sitting in a lounge in my college dorms, sobbing. It's 3am and all I can do is sit on this couch and sob. I'm shaking, and hurting. How is it that I have a month of my life that you aren't in. That i have experienced a month... ]]></description>
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    <pubDate>Thu, 27 Aug 2015 08:41:43 +0200</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[You came up tonight. I don't remember how, I was drunk. I think I was describing why I cling to Bradley, because he was there for me when you left. But I told them. Who knows if they'll remember. I was drunk. But it was Ryan and Sophia, I told them. I... ]]></description>
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    <pubDate>Tue, 25 Aug 2015 03:40:18 +0200</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[Nobody here knows yet. I don't know when they will either. Maybe someone will ask about you in the pictures I have of us in my room and I'll have to tell them. Or maybe I'll break down one day and someone will see me and I'll have to explain. But I don't... ]]></description>
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    <pubDate>Sun, 23 Aug 2015 21:33:04 +0200</pubDate>
    <description><![CDATA[I just don't get it. I don't understand that you're gone. That you can't be my maid of honor at my wedding or the god mother to my children. That you won't be there with me. Im so scared. Im scared to do all of this without you. Im terrified of living... ]]></description>
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