I still don't know what I'm doing here. Without you. I keep finding myself just wanting to tell you something or ask you something or just talk to you. And I get so close. My forgetting that you're gone comes so close and then j remember. I just. I don't...

I still get ready for bed at night and right before I climb in I think of all the stuff I want to talk to you about. I'm like oh I can't wait to lay down and text Anna about this. But I can't. Which is so weird. And I don't like it. Like it doesn't feel...

I broke down about you today. It came by surprise. I was sitting on the shuttle going to gamma practice and I was mad at some of my friends, not mad mad just in the moment like come on guys you're low key being assholes anywho I was still kind of upset...

It's weird how my emotions can completely differ. And I know how they so easily do. Days like today, I was distracted from the moment I woke up, distracted from you, and distracted onto this amazing new home I found. I finally got something j really wanted...