Five months later and I've started to realize something. Through tragedy some friends grow closer and keep continuous support. Yet sadly some drift apart separate themselves from me. Leaving me lonelier than before.

There are approximately 1,013,913 words in the English language but I could never string any of them together to explain how incredible I think you are.

“I feel unspeakably lonely. And I feel - drained. It is a blank state of mind and soul I cannot describe to you as I think it would not make any difference. Also it is a very private feeling I have - that of melting into a perpetual nervous breakdown....

Fuck Anna. The person I've become. Sometimes I hate myself for it. One of those times is right now. To say planes give me anxiety is an understatement. Besides when the boys flew home a couple days after that week I've been able to control it, well enough...