How is it that you're not here. How is it that I am living on a planet where you...

How is it that you're not here. How is it that I am living on a planet where you aren't. I'll never understand this. I don't know how many times I've said it. My best friend died. My best friend is dead. But I feel as if I could say it a million times but it wouldn't feel real. How could it. Our forever is lost in the stars. Being back in town people think I'm okay. But I'm fooling them and fooling myself sometimes. Because I'm not okay, how am I supposed to be. When will this ever be okay. Ive been keeping myself busy but you're still on my mind 24/7. But if I'm not doing anything I break down. In a void of numbness and overwhelming heart break i break down.